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Just finished reading an old blog that I forgot that I had. I am in tears. It was about my pregnancy with Braden and how God brought us through. I was showing Brady one of his sono pics. He said, "I all burned.", pointing to the black background. I told him that he wasn't burned that he was inside my tummy. He was upset! "I not in your tummy, I here!" I said, "No you were hiding in my tummy waiting to say, "Hi!" Well that didn't help! He puffed, "I no hide in there!" and walked off. So much for my Hallmark moment.
Its unbelievable how God watched over Braden, but we lost Naomi. In reality, I can't say I miss her because everything happen so quick, but I miss what could of been. All my life I wanted a house full of kids. I am not bitter, I wished it were different and Naomi was still here growing in my tummy. There's nothing like the feeling of life growing and learning inside you. I am so thankful God gave me that time with Braden. Some things we just have to accept as God's sovereign will and move on.
At first I didn't want to try again, but this has made my desire for another child so strong. Our little family just can't go through this again. Weeks of knowing that at any moment our unborn child was dying. Weeks of waiting for it to happen. Unsure what to do and what God would have us to do. We struggled.
And while I trust God, sometimes I question why couldn't he have just taken her and not put our family through so much. In all things I trust him!